Listen... before it's too late

This morning has been a busy one... 9.00 am I heard someone crying and shouting my name, I thought it was a dream but after a while I realised it was my mom. I was afraid. Though I knew it must be something about my aunt, I was still not prepared for the news. My aunt passed away. For one moment, I was stoning, maybe because I was just awake.. I am lost. I don't dare to cry because I must be strong to comfort my mom. I helped my mom call my other relatives, some cried bitterly, some just accepted the news. My mom rushed down to see my aunt for the last time. She was crying all the time. She could not even speak. I told her I would join her later because I didn't dare to see my aunt. She used to be very close to me and as she doesnt have any daughters, she always dotes on me. She took care of me when I was young. I am afraid that I wouldn't be able to control myself if I see her.
As I was on my way out, my mom called me to hurry up. I wanted to take mrt there but in the end I decided to take a cab. My mom told me that my aunt's eyes cannot be closed. My uncle, my mom, and my cousins have tried closing her eyes but her eyes are still open. It is believed that there's still someone whom she wanna see, but is not around at her deathbed. My mom thinks it's me because she don't have many friends and she likes me a lot, somtimes treating me like her own daughter. She also says my aunt often ask about me when she visits her. I reminded myself not to cry. But when I saw her, I just kept crying and the nurses have alreadi taped her eyelids so that her eyes will be closed. My mom told me to tell her to go peacefully and not to worry. I was speechless,nothing seems to come out of my mouth. I just held her hands firmly.
I ran around with my mom to settle some of the things. My aunt has told my cousins to ask my mom for help. And I heard from my dad that 2 days ago, my aunt actually called my mom to talk to her, but my mom scolded her. my dad din tell me why and now my mom blames herself. My aunt could have wanted to have last few words with my mom but she just scolded her and now my mom regrets it a lot. I am also very worried about my mom. She dotes on my aunt alot and often cook/buy my aunt's favourite food and deliver to her house knowing that she's sick and could not cook for herself. but because they are not good at expressing themselves, they ended up arguing most of the time.
I have never told my aunt but I hope she knows... that.... even when I am grown up, I know she dotes on me, and I will never forget her... love ya...