I am miserable

Early this morning I received a sms from a friend that I just knew.
P.S. Not online ok...

"Good Afternoon to the girl who can't hold her drink!"

"Sobsob! Thanks :("

"Eh? crying? Let me ask u.. How much control do u think you have over your emotions?"

"Little control. Haha."

"Women who are emotionally strong are attractive ya? Anyway I have a feeling we won't click well..Take care..I'm off to the Thieves Market!"

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It's not that I have interest in this guy or what. Seriously I don't. But somehow whatever he have said just made me feel like dying.

I know I am useless. All I know is cry. I cant even handle my emotions well.

I know I am emotionally weak. I know I am a failure. I know I am unattractive (if not he wouldn't dump me for another girl right?).

I am already feeling very vexed and miserable.

What else do you want from me?

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I am now stucked.

I made a wrong move.

Before is not = After.

How now?

I don't know.

Maybe it shouldn't have started.

Maybe I don't like him that much.

Maybe I was just touched by whatever he has done before but not now.

Maybe maybe maybe...

Being a typical Libran, I tend to think a lot and indecisive.

How now?

Maybe I should be left alone... and zi sheng zi mie