I am miserable (II)

People just don't appreciate.

I worked so hard for the money to buy her an ipod cos I know the previous mp3 that I gave her was lousy and it's a second hand thing.

Do you know?

I come home late every night because I have nothing to do at home even when I come home early, and all of you are doing your own things in your own room?

Do you know?

You don't tell me things.

Do you know?

I am so miserable inside.

Do you know?

Everytime I talk to you, you just gave me the bo-chap attitude.

Do you know?

You talk to me nicely only when I am super sad,when you have homework questions to ask me or when you want to borrow my clothes. ( that's why I hate it when you borrow clothes from me. It's not that I am selfish, don't want to share my clothes with you but it's cos I know you are only nice temporarily.)

Do you know?

Whenever I want to share my joy or sorrows when I come home, you will always ignore me.

Do you know?

I am depressed. *teary-eyed*

Do you know?

It hurts when you used Clara's mp3 player cos you look down on my mp3 player and you don't need my ipod.

Do you know?

Everything's in your mind is Clara, Joy and matthew... Is there a place for me?

I am not happy being at home... in fact, I am not happy anywhere... Maybe I don't belong here at all.

Maybe I should just let my infections get worse and die from it.