Sad :(

Is it me?

I seemed to have a little problem communicating with my project mates this semester. First, it was this larger-than-normal group consisting of 7 girls. I knew 3 of them. I thought it shouldn't be that hard working in an all-girls' team especially when I was in a girls' school and I had worked in an all-girls' team before for my previous modules. However I realised this time was slightly different when we were all together in the same room, discussing about our project. It happened more than once when I said something and was ignored. Other times, I didn't even have the chance to finish my sentence. After some time, I quit trying.

Then, just a moment ago, i was checking something from this document a team mate had written earlier, when I realised that she didn't include my name. Not blaming her, I am just a little sad.

Maybe... I am a nobody in this world... Being so quiet and so 'normal', no one actually notices me. People I don't know never knew I existed, and people I know forgot all about me. I will live alone in some corner where no one knows...

Someone ask me why all my boyfriends are people I knew online? Maybe the reason is the same. When I am in the public, in school or at work, I look so normal like any other passerbys on the street, any other classmates or any other colleagues around me. I am not outstanding at all. Only when I meet someone new alone, people will then notice me?