Blessed! =)

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Are you waiting for the day
When your pain will disappear
When you know that it's not true
What they say about you
You could not care less about the things
Surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from the walls

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Still we don't know what's yet to come
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Song lyrics of Lene Marlin's Disguise.
First heard it when I was watching a Taiwanese Drama serial, 100% Senorita (Qian Jing Bai Fen Bai).

While walking up the slope to my house last evening,
My hp played this song,
I am actually not troubled over anything.
I also don't know why I'm so emotional when I hear this song,
But I have been feeling quite moody for the past few days.

Unsure of my dream,
I still went ahead with the course.
Now, pockets empty,
It would probably mean less pampering, less entertainment, less security.
This time I'm serious,
Looking for some high-paying part-time jobs.
Haha!

Sometimes, I think I can understand why some women prefer women to men.
It's not that men aren't good,
But they probably think women can understand women better.
Nope, I am not having problems with my DearDear,
But things we(women) worry, are deemed as unnecessary troubles to them (from my DearDear's feedbacks).
Agree?
But I guess it's in our genes and we can't be blamed right?
We didn't want to be sad and moody most of our time.

HOWEVER,
He has been very nice to me,
Buying me stuffs,
Remembering things I merely mentioned,
Fetching me after outings with my friends(regardless of the distance).
I appreciate his efforts in this relationship.
REALLY.
I am truly touched and happy that I met him.
I love you and I will dote you a lot too!
Heez...

He's sick and I am actually at his place now.
Think I am not really good in taking care of sick patients cos I didn't buy the 'right' lunch for him.
Going out for dinner le!
Cya